Thursday, April 29, 2010

I'm finally ready.

I am ready for my life to be in the next chapter.

I feel like I have been in a holding pattern for 3 years.

I graduated from OU, got married, and started my job.

Everyone around me is moving to their next destination whether they’re having babies, buying houses, or graduating.

And someday, I’ll do all of those things and probably in rapid succession.

But in the mean time, I’m just sitting and waiting.

Thankfully, my husband graduates next month so we do have some excitement.

And there’s that part that will start the moving process both literally and figuratively, we will move this summer to Michigan.

But in the mean time, I’m just sitting and waiting for my life to start.

I’m not depressed about it. I wish it would get here faster than slower some days. But then, I get a phone call from my baby sister and brother asking if we’ll come out to mom and dad’s house for dinner and I’m completely okay with where I am at the moment.

But when I get down to really thinking about it all, I am ready.

I am ready to be somewhere new.

I am looking forward to our first month in Michigan because it will be like a mini-vacation for me. Brandon will be at work. So I’m sure I’ll spend my first days unpacking and decorating. But when he gets home we can go explore the city and learn a new place. We’ll get a kick out of people and I’m more than sure they’ll get a kick out of me.

I am ready to be in law school.

I love to learn and for the next 3-4 years, I’ll be doing nothing but just that. I am ready to be where I’ve ultimately wanted to be since I was 17. Also, I am very excited about the school supplies. I don’t care how nerdy that makes me sound. I take it on completely.

I am ready to be just the two of us…and Paisley too of course.

As scary as it sounds for us to move away like this for all parties involved, I am excited for it to be just the two of us. As of now, we do not think we’re going to be able to make it home for Thanksgiving because my break at school is very short. So if our family doesn’t come to see us, we’ll have our very first major holiday by ourselves. I am looking forward to making all of our favorites that day and just enjoying a long weekend to ourselves. If family comes to visit well then, we’ll be happy that they’re there. But this is a chapter of our lives that we’ll get to tell our kids about some day. The stories will start, “well, when your mom and I lived in Michigan…” and go on from there.

I have this picture in my mind of what I want our lives to look like once Brandon graduates and I start law school. I’ve tried to put it into words in this post of what a small fraction of this life will look like, but I know that it will not look anything like it.

It will be much more challenging.

It will be better.

It will stretch us.

It will change us.

It will cause us to be out of our comfort zone to say the least.

Don’t get me wrong. I know I talk a good talk. But remember, I am still the girl who’s nervous as all get out about this whole deal…with just one difference.

I’ve finally let it settle in my bones that God will be with us the whole way.

So, here am I Lord.

I am ready.

Send me…and Brandon and Paisley to a far off land known as Michigan. You know...after Brandon graduates and all. Ha!

And Satan as far as you’re concerned, like the Pat Benetar song says, “Hit me with your best shot. Fire away!”

Happy Thursday.


Brittany said...

You'll have to let me know which part of Michigan you're moving to. I am in central Ohio, but go up to northern Ohio a few times a year. If you're not too far up, maybe we can meet half way!

Mrs. Potts said...

I feel like such a big sister, but I have to say, "I'm proud of you". You're making big steps & opening up to growth & God's hand - something that is never easy.

I'll be cheering you on!

Kelsey @ Seattle Smith's said...

I know we have talked about this before, but my hubby and I taking an adventure for our family was the best thing we could have done for ourselves. I hope you time will be blessed and fulfilling!!!

Jessika said...

I'm about to tear up. I'm SO proud of you Sam. End of story.

Kelsey Claire @Lavender, Leopard, and Lace said...

You are finally doing what you want to do. I am so happy for you!

Brittany Ann said...

Yay! I am so proud of you, too, for being ready and excited! I just love it! And I love that we can be "ready" together, too;)

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...


Hi y'all! The name's Samantha. You can call me Sam if you like. I am a lover to a boy I met at Falls Creek in the summer of 2005, that is a student of Jesus, a Sooner born and Sooner bred and when I die I'll be Sooner dead, Democrat by party, blonde to the core, and oldies but goodies kind of girl.
The Ruby Turtle Hippie Times
<div class="grab-button" margin: 0 auto;"><a href="" rel="nofollow"><img src="" alt="The Ruby Turtle Hippie Times"></div>

Designed By:

Munchkin Land Designs
Designed by Munchkin Land Designs • Copyright 2015 • All Rights Reserved